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Zoe is 5 months old now! Wow! So, what’s new?

Pumping/Breastfeeding & The “Snapback”

I just recently stopped breastfeeding because my supply dropped to almost nothing for some strange, unknown reason and I absolutely have mom guilt for that. Although I made it to five months, and my goal was six, I still feel like I’ve failed my baby in some way. It’s bittersweet. Pumping every 2-2.5 hours caused me to feel like I was chained to my pump with no real free time to do anything else or even really enjoy my baby. And yes, I feel bad for not being able to give my baby breast milk anymore, but I honestly and truly tried my absolute best. I’m just thankful I was able to feed her from the breast for as long as I could, and now I have more time to spend and enjoy with her without the stress of pumping.

I know a baby doesn’t change my ability to live my best life, but the pressure to “snapback” and return to my pre-pregnancy body is grossly overwhelming. While no one is pushing or pressuring it directly, there is an indirect pressure that exists within our society that makes me feel like I’m not trying hard enough. I definitely want to see the “pre-baby” Destiny, but at the same time, I have to realize the trauma my body has experienced whilst creating another human life over the past year. I have literally just housed and birthed an entire human being. Expecting to return to “pre-baby” Destiny in two months or even five, is simply unrealistic for a single, working mother.

With that being said, I am finally ready to get back to working out, eating healthier and putting more effort into the infamous “snapback.”

Milestones

I haven’t gotten Zoe’s ears pierced yet, but I plan to soon. She’s growing so fast, developing so many new skills and learning new sounds. We’ve started pureed foods like pears, carrots, and peas. I sometimes give her the inside of a french fry when we’re out to eat, and she’s licked a chicken bone or two as well. It seems as though she’s already teething, she’s trying to crawl, loves to stand, and can sit up without assistance!

When I look back at her newborn pictures, it all seems like such a blur. Time literally FLIES. She’s almost half of a year old and it seems like she was just born a few months ago! I never imagined loving someone so much, but I’m so thankful for the opportunity to give her life; she’s such a happy baby.

I’m super excited to see how she continues to grow and develop. I can already tell she’s going to be a super curious busybody and nothing less than a handful.

Until next time! Follow me on IG to see her latest pics!