I took a break from social media because…
It was draining me of the little bit of life I had left.
I don’t really know if I was actually depressed or if I was just being over-dramatic like everyone claims I am.
I didn’t want to make a scene or seem like I was crying out for help, but maybe I should have because help was exactly what I needed.
A lot of us fall short of admitting when we need help and resort to carrying loads much too heavy for us – both mentally and emotionally.
Let’s not forget to mention the wonderful stigma associated with mental health issues that so many of us, myself included, try to avoid by appearing as though we have it all together.
I’m the happy, goofy, always smiling, laughing and joking girl. What do I look like breaking down or admitting I don’t have it all together when it seems like everyone expects me to?
There were days I’d wake up and feel like I was just going through the motions with no direction, motivation, or purpose.
I felt so trapped within this realm of uncertainty – drowning in everything that once made so much sense to me.
Like many other people who don’t always speak out, I didn’t want to be judged for what I was feeling and going through.
I didn’t want anyone to know I wasn’t 100 percent Destiny at the time. Or that I was succumbing to my [mental, physical and emotional] insecurities and shortcomings.
While I was away, I had this overwhelming urge to declutter and cut ties with what felt like tons of dead weight.
I started by deleting a LOT of phone numbers. If there weren’t any recent or meaningful text threads, you had to go.
When I finally returned to Facebook and Instagram mid-August, I did the same thing. If I didn’t plan on speaking to you in the near future, or if you didn’t offer any real value to my life – DELETE, UNFRIEND, UNFOLLOW!
Everyone doesn't deserve a piece of your mental space! Be unapologetic about it! Click To Tweet
Being surrounded by thousands of people’s thoughts, opinions, and negative energy is exhausting – and exhausting is an understatement.
What we consume, and whom we surround ourselves with, eventually translate into the things we think, feel, and act on. Don’t debate me.
Ask yourself if the people you spend your time or surround yourself with are bettering you or adding value to your life? If yes, how so? If no, let them go!
Guess what? I’m still purging at this very moment.
If you know me, you’ll know I often go through phases where I need to disappear, regroup and recharge…
But this time was different. It wasn’t as simple as taking a break from social media, but more so trying to figure out what was happening to me.
What was my life becoming and what was I planning to do about it?
That wasn’t something I could figure out with everyone else’s thoughts and opinions weighing me down. Especially those who didn’t matter or care.
I still haven’t figured out if depression is really something I struggle with from time to time, or if again, I’m just being a little over-dramatic.
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Whether I appear to be or not, I am NOT perfect. I do NOT have it all together. I’m still learning, growing and evolving, like many of you!
If you took the time to check in with me while I was away, I really appreciate it!
With that being said, you never really know what a person is dealing with sometimes until it’s too late.
Reach out to your friends and make sure they’re REALLY okay – mentally, physically and emotionally. While you’re at it, make sure YOUR cup is full too. You can’t pour into anything or anyone else if you’re also depleted.
Take a break and fill up – it’s necessary. Self-care is necessary.
I did exactly the same thing and it was wonderful. When I returned I felt the negativity was overwhelming! Kudos to you for knowing how to care for yourself and being wise enough to know everyone doesn’t deserve part of your mental space or a front row to your life. You’re a smart woman.
Thank you! It’s SO wonderful. I’m actually ready to disappear again! lol.
I am about to make a big change myself, less content and even less personal content. I completely understand where you are coming from.
Thanks for reading D’Lambert!
Comfort Nnana Kalu says
I love this! It’s always important to step back, disconnect and return to yourself.
Yes!! Thank you for reading!
exhausting is an understatement! good for you. so many people struggle through it not even realizing that all that stuff swirling around is the problem.
Exactly! Definitely have to eliminate the surrounding factors.